AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

Well, first off i obviously need to blog more than once a week! So much is going through my head right now and i just want to scream!
Secondly, to all the mammas reading thank you from every one of your children to you!! I am not a mother but caring for 4 a day is so demanding, and while i love it and love being with children because they are so refreshing, some days(like today) i just wanna say....HELLLOOOO WHAT ABOUT WHAT I WANT?!?!?!?! I of course don't because they would probably think i am nuts but i think about it a lot. It's like every breakfast lunch and diner you ask what they want but wouldn't it be great if they said i don't know "S" what do you want? I know it has to be hard giving your whole life to your children and loving them more than you even love yourself and i give you all a lot of credit! And to my sis "R" i love ya girl and you are doing a fine job as a mother!! I guess the reason i started even thinking about this has nothing to do with kids, but my boyfriend "J". I asked him to do one thing for me last night and did he do it...uh nope! Then he comes in the door tonight and says whats for dinner? I said its in the fridge...but what i really wanted to say was i dunno what are you going to make for me?? Or whatever you make!! Wow this venting feels really good!!!
Thirdly, and on a better note i lost 1.8lbs! I made up for last week and i feel great but i really wish it would have been more! What my leader said in class today really hit home though so i am gonna try to focus on the good stuff i did through the week instead of all the bad and being so hard on myself. I can do this, i can and will lose the weight!!
And last but not least, why cant anyone ever just do something without having to be asked?!?!?! I guess i am don't ranting and raving for one night but I'm sure i will be back soon!!
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