Trying so hard for a baby!!

So, as my weight loss journey continued and ended and is now back on my life is in a very different place. I got married in May and my husband and I have been trying to a baby since before that, but shhhh dont tell his mom! :) I have never had regular periods and always felt as though i couldnt have kids so when it came time to try for a baby lets just say i was a little nervous. I have brought up to my hubby J many time that what if i couldnt get pregnant and he always just brushed it off and said that i am crazy it will happen. Well present day time i am not so sure he is feeling that way anymore. Anyway I went to the doctor and got a physical and she started me on a hormore to regulate my period and i had to start tracking my temperature to see IF i was even ovulating and IF i was when. Well after month 1 i was thrilled to see that i was ovulating, but why was it so late........then month 2 hit and it was even later in my cycle. (day 24 1st month and day 26 2nd month) I thought this was weird since it was only a couple days before my next peiod so i started looking on the internet (big mistake) to see if this was commmon, normal, ok, anything, but what i found just scared me to death. I found lots of women in my same boat at a discussion forum and started reading thinking they would say it took awhile but it happened....instead i found "it took a long time then i miscarried", "it still hasnt happened and my dr isnt sure it will" and more bad news. I started crying immediatley (not knowing if this is even whats wrong with me) and J got out of the shower to see me uncontrolably sobbing and didnt have any idea what was going on. I called my mom only for her to tell me, "I am your mother and i know it will happen!" Now i know she meant that to make me feel better but all i could do is think, how the hell does she know, she doesnt know whats wrong with me, i dont even know! That has been what everyone has been saying but no one knows what and how i am feeling! I feel so worthless as a woman and a wife. What if i cant give J a baby, what if i will never be a mother? All these "what ifs" run through my head everyday, and no one understands. Everytime i get my period i mourn a loss that was never even there and it hurts more than anything in the world. I know that it still can happen and i know there are tons of ways these days for it to happen, it just sucks to try so hard month after month for it to fail. It seems like everytime we get a step closer something happens and sets us back 2 steps. I hope this is nothing or just a small fix but i cant help but wonder about the what ifs. I meet with my Dr the day after thanksgiving and will find out more then, but until then im not sure what i am gonna do. Being a mother is something i have wanted my whole life, and it hurts to see or hear about people everyday getting accidentally pregnant or getting abortions. I fell like i have no one to talk to so I felt i should get these feelings out somewhere. I am hoping and praying for my little one to come to J and I and for some good news on the 26th. Until then ill keep waiting and trying to stay positive and thankful for the people and things i do have in my life right now that are wonderful! Thanks for listening! *S*